Dreams from My Father

lifestyle has left him lean and clear-eyed, and at the wedding, he looked so dignified in his black African gown with white trim and matching cap that some of our guests mistook him for my father. He was certainly the older brother that day, talking me through prenuptial jitters, patiently telling me for the fifth and sixth time that yes, he still had the ring, nudging me out the door with the observation that if I spent any more time in front of the mirror it wouldn’t matter how I looked because we were sure to be late.
    Not that the changes in him are without tension. He’s prone to make lengthy pronouncements on the need for the black man to liberate himself from the poisoning influences of European culture, and scolds Auma for what he calls her European ways. The words he speaks are not fully his own, and in his transition he can sometimes sound stilted and dogmatic. But the magic of his laughter remains, and we can disagree without rancor. His conversion has given him solid ground to stand on, a pride in his place in the world. From that base I see his confidence building; he begins to venture out and ask harder questions; he starts to slough off the formulas and slogans and decides what works best for him. He can’t help himself in this process, for his heart is too generous and full of good humor, his attitude toward people too gentle and forgiving, to find simple solutions to the puzzle of being a black man.
    Toward the end of the wedding, I watched him grinning widely for the video camera, his long arms draped over the shoulders of my mother and Toot, whose heads barely reached the height of his chest. “Eh, brother,” he said to me as I walked up to the three of them. “It looks like I have two new mothers now.” Toot patted him on the back. “And we have a new son,” she said, although when she tried to say “Abongo” her Kansas tongue mangled it hopelessly. My mother’s chin started to tremble again, and Abongo lifted up his glass of fruit punch for a toast.
    “To those who are not here with us,” he said.
    “And to a happy ending,” I said.
    We dribbled our drinks onto the checkered-tile floor. And for that moment, at least, I felt like the luckiest man alive.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR
    BARACK OBAMA is the junior U.S. senator from Illinois. He began his career as a community organizer in some of Chicago’s poorest communities and then attended Harvard Law School, where he was elected the first African-American president of the Harvard Law Review. In 1992, he directed Illinois Project VOTE, which registered 150,000 new voters. From 1997 to 2004, he served as a three-term state senator from Chicago’s South Side. In addition to his legislative duties, he has been a senior lecturer in constitutional law at the University of Chicago Law School, practiced civil rights law, and served on the board of directors of various charitable organizations.
    Obama lives in Chicago’s Hyde Park neighborhood with his wife, Michelle, and daughters, Malia and Sasha.

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Copyright © 1995, 2004 by Barack Obama
             
    Published in the United States by Crown Publishers, an imprint of the Crown Publishing Group, a division of Random House, Inc., New York.
             
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    Originally published in hardcover in 1995 by Times Books, an imprint of the Crown Publishing Group, a division of Random House, Inc. and in paperback by Kodansha America, Inc., in 1996. Subsequently published in paperback with preface and keynote address in 2004 by Three Rivers Press, an imprint of the Crown Publishing Group, a division of Random House, Inc. This edition appears without keynote address.
             
    Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
    Obama, Barack.
    Dreams from my father : a story of race and inheritance / Barack Obama.
    1. Obama, Barack. 2. African Americans—Biography. 3. Racially mixed people—United States—Biography. 4. Racism—United States. 5. United States—Race relations. I. Title.
    E185.97.023A3 2004
    973'.0405967625013'092—dc22 2004012412
             
             
    eISBN: 978-0-307-39412-5
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