Definitely Dead

drive it. I have to get back to Bon Temps.”
    The prospect of going home seemed so sweet I could taste it on my tongue.
    “So you got lots to do at home?” Amelia asked, as Quinn and I began going up the stairs. I guessed Quinn could sleep in the same bed. We were both too tired to plunge into anything; tonight was not the night to begin a relationship, if I hadn’t already begun one. Maybe I had.
    “Well, I have a lot of weddings to go to,” I said. “I have to get back to work, too.”
    “Got an empty guest bedroom?”
    I stopped about halfway up the stairs. “I might. Would you be needing one?”
    It was hard to tell in the poor light, but Amelia might be looking embarrassed. “I tried something new with Bob,” she said. “And it didn’t exactly work out right.”
    “Where is he?” I asked. “In the hospital?”
    “No, right there,” she said. She was pointing at a garden gnome.
    “Tell me you’re joking,” I said.
    “I’m joking,” she said. “This is Bob.” She picked up a big black cat with a white chest that had been curled up in an empty planter. I hadn’t even noticed him. “Isn’t he cute?”
    “Sure, bring him along,” I said. “I’ve always been fond of cats.”
    “Babe,” said Quinn, “I’m glad to hear you say that. I was too tired to completely change.”
    For the first time, I really looked at Quinn.
    Now he had a tail.
    “You’re definitely sleeping on the floor,” I said.
    “Ah, babe.”
    “I mean it. Tomorrow you’ll be able to be all human, right?”
    “Sure. I’ve changed too many times lately. I just need some rest.”
    Amelia was looking at the tail with wide eyes. “See you tomorrow, Sookie,” she said. “We’ll have us a little road trip. And then I’ll get to stay with you for a while!”
    “We’ll have such fun,” I said wearily, trudging up the rest of the stairs and feeling profoundly glad I’d stuck my door key in my underwear. Quinn was too tired to watch me retrieve it. I let the remnants of the dress fall back into place while I unlocked the door. “Such fun.”
    Later, after I’d showered and while Quinn was in the bathroom himself, I heard a tentative knock on the door. I was decent enough in my sleep pants and tank top. Though I wanted to ignore it more than anything, I opened the door.
    Bill was looking pretty good for someone who’d fought in a war. The tuxedo would never be functional again, but he wasn’t bleeding, and whatever cuts he might have sustained had already healed over.
    “I have to talk to you,” he said, and his voice was so quiet and limp that I took a step out of the apartment. I sat down on the gallery floor, and he sat with me.
    “You have to let me say this, just once,” he said. “I loved you. I love you.”
    I raised a hand to protest, and he said, “No, let me finish. She sent me there, true. But when I met you—after I came to know you—I really . . . loved you.”
    How long after he’d taken me to bed had this supposed love come about? How could I possibly believe him, since he’d lied so convincingly from the very moment I’d met him—playing disinterested because he could read my fascination with the first vampire I’d ever met?
    “I risked my life for you,” I said, the words coming out in a halting sequence. “I gave Eric power over me forever, for your sake, when I took his blood. I killed someone for you. This is not something I take for granted, even if you do . . . even if that’s everyday existence for you. It’s not, for me. I don’t know if I can ever not hate you.”
    I got up, slowly and painfully, and to my relief he didn’t make the mistake of trying to help me. “You probably saved my life tonight,” I said, looking down at him. “And I thank you for that. But don’t come into Merlotte’s any more, don’t hang around in my woods, and don’t do anything else for me. I don’t want to see you again.”
    “I love you,” he said stubbornly, as if that fact were so amazing and such an undeniable truth that I should believe him. Well, I had, and look at where it had gotten me.
    “Those words are not a magical formula,” I said. “They’re not going to open my heart to you.”
    Bill was over a hundred and thirty years old, but at that moment I felt I could match him. I dragged myself inside, shut the door behind me and locked it, and made myself go down the hall to the bedroom.
    Quinn was drying himself off, and he turned around to show me his muscular