Love Without You

tonight Josh knocked on her door and invited her to a cook out at his house, just some friends and family, some she already knew. She was tired of staying at home so she agreed to go.

At 7:00 she found herself surrounded by people she didn't know and loving every minute of it. They were funny and she really had a good time. The food was great and the whole evening was terrific. She couldn’t believe how much she enjoyed it and to think she almost didn't go because she was by herself. She stayed till late and helped Josh clean up and then he walked her home. The lights on the water glimmered like fire flies and the waves lapped at the edge of the sand sending spray up on you just enough to get your feet wet. It was the perfect night and Josh took her hand as they walked down the beach. She thanked him for a wonderful evening and promised to get in touch with him over the weekend. He kissed her hand as he released her and she went into the house and closed the door. What was she thinking? It had to have been the amount of wine she drank or the evening or something strange. She knew she couldn’t or shouldn't be falling for Josh, it was way too soon. But her hand seemed to burn where he had laid the kiss and she couldn't help but wonder what it would be like.
    Life could be hectic sometimes. Deadlines were coming due and Jessica had to work a lot of late nights to keep caught up at work. There were lots of nights she burned the midnight oil till much too late and paid for it the next day. But she kept up and she loved what she did so she didn’t mind a little extra work. Besides what else did she have to do? It was one of these nights when she heard a knock on her door. Startled she peaked out and saw Josh standing there. She opened the door and he apologized for the time but he said he had been coming home and saw her light on and wanted to make sure she was all right. He took his hand and adjusted a piece of hair that had fallen across her face, a simple act of kindness that brought a hot searing flash with it. She caught his hand as it came down he bent down and kissed her. He didn't apologize and neither did she. It was the best kiss she had ever had and she wanted more. But, she knew better, she didn't want Josh to be a rebound lover. She coveted the friendship they had and if she ever wanted more it would be better to go real slow. That kiss would linger on her lips a long time just as the thought of Josh would be there.
    After that they saw more of each other but not a lot. They still had their own lives to lead and once or twice a week they would get together and have dinner or share a bottle of wine. Once they went to a movie and they went shopping a few times but nothing earth shaking was happening, till Christmas. At Christmas everything seemed to change for the better. They started spending more time with each other and going out a lot more. They became closer and talked continuously about everything. They were almost inseparable by the time Valentine’s Day came taking time out for work of course. In early April they took a short vacation and stayed gone for 4 days.

Chapter 4 - An Unexpected Surprise
    Jessica took him to meet her Mom and dad and her sister one night in June and moved in with her shortly after. Josh rented out his house and they shared Jessica’s. It was the perfect set up and they were having a great time being together. There was no expectations and no worries, no mind games so nothing they had to worry about. They were honest with each other and told each other what they expected and what they wanted out of the relationship. It was the easiest relationship either of them had ever had and they felt truly blessed to have found each other. They were in love with each other but found no hurry in making a commitment with each other because of the trust between them.
    Then in Sept Jessica found out she was pregnant. This was something they hadn't counted on and it threw them for a loop. A baby was a miracle and they were excited but scared at the same time. Things went well for them till one night when Jessica was about 3 ½ months along. She woke Josh up and him that something was wrong. The hospital wasn't that far from them but by the time they got to the hospital they had lost the baby. This was a devastating blow for both of them and they had to heavily sedate Jessica and kept her over night. She and Josh went home the next morning and Josh put Jessica in their bed and gave her