Dreaming of the Bones

writing, and writing well. If her personal problems coincided with a dry spell, she had difficulty coping, and I believe that’s what happened after the breakup of her marriage. But as she grew older she seemed more and more content alone. If she had a serious relationship in the last ten years of her life, I’ve not been able to discover it.”
    ”And was she suffering writer’s block before she died?” Kincaid asked, finding himself intrigued.
    ”No.” Vic put her cup on the side table and rubbed her palms together as if her hands were cold. ”That’s it, you see. When she died, she was in the process of editing the manuscript of a new book, the best thing she had ever done. The poems have such depth and richness—it’s as if she suddenly discovered another dimension to herself.”
    ”Maybe that was it,” Kincaid suggested. ”There was nowhere left for her to go.”
    Vic shook her head. ”At first I considered that a possibility, but the better I know her, the less likely it seems. I think she’d found her stride at last. She could have done so much more, given so much—”
    ”Vic.” Kincaid leaned forwards and touched her hand. ”You can never be sure what’s in another person’s heart. You know that. Sometimes people just wake up one day and decide they’re tired of life, and they don’t leave behind any explanation at all. Maybe that’s what happened to Lydia .”
    She shook her head, more vehemently this time. ”That’s not all. Lydia died from an overdose of her own heart medication. Don’t suicides usually keep to the same pattern, escalating the violence if they’re not successful?”
    ”Sometimes, yes. But that doesn’t necessarily mean it’s always the case.”
    ”The first time she slit her wrists in the bath—it was only a friend coming in unexpectedly that saved her. The second time she drove her car into a tree and managed to give herself a serious concussion. Later she said her foot slipped from the accelerator just at the crucial moment. Do you see?”
    ”The third attempt should have been more violent still?” Kincaid shrugged. ”I suppose it’s possible. So what are you suggesting?”
    Vic looked away for a moment, then said slowly, ”I’m not sure. It sounds so daft in the light of day ..
    ”Come on, out with it.”
    ”What if Lydia didn’t kill herself? I know with her history it was a logical assumption, but just think how easy that would have made it for someone else.” Vic stopped the rush of words and took a breath, adding more slowly, ”What I’m saying is... I think Lydia might have been murdered.”
    In the silence that followed, Kincaid counted to ten in his head. Tread carefully, he cautioned himself. Don’t tell her she’s too close, that she’s lost her perspective. Don’t tell her how far people go to deny the suicides of loved ones —and he had no doubt that Vic felt closer to Lydia Brooke than many did to their own flesh and blood— and for God’s sake don’t tell her she’s hysterical. ”All right,” he said finally. ”Three questions. Why, how, and who?”
    Voice rising, Vic said, ”I don’t know. I’ve interviewed everyone I could contact, and I can’t even find anyone who had a minor quarrel with her. But it still doesn’t feel right.” Kincaid drank the dregs of his tea while he considered how to answer. Ten years ago, twelve years ago, he’d been a by-the-book copper, and he probably would have laughed at her suspicions. But he’d learned not to discount intuition, even as unlikely as it sometimes seemed. ”Okay,” he said. ”Let’s assume for a moment that you’re right, that there is something fishy about Lydia’s death. What is it that you want me to do?”
    Vic smiled, and he saw to his astonishment that her eyes had filled with tears. ”I wanted you to tell me I’m not crazy. You can’t imagine what a relief it is just to talk about it.” She hesitated, touching her fingers to her throat. ”And then I thought maybe you could look into it a bit..
    Trying to contain his exasperation, he said, ”Vic, the case is five years old, and it’s not in my jurisdiction. What could I possibly do? Why don’t you talk to someone on the force here—”
    She was already shaking her head. ”You’ve got to be kidding. You know perfectly well they’d send me away with a condescending pat on the back and never open the file. They’ve too much to do with gangs and drugs these days to spend time on something