Sunset Park

but Ben Samuels did remember her, and Ben Samuels was pleased to have found her again, so pleased that he stood up from his chair, walked around to the other side of Ellen’s desk, and put his arms around her in a great welcoming hug. They spent the afternoon walking in and out of empty apartments together, kissing in the first apartment, making love in the second apartment, and now that Ben Samuels has moved into the neighborhood, he and Ellen have continued making love nearly every day. That is why Ellen cut her hair—because Ben is aroused by the back of her neck—and once she cut her hair, she understood that he would be even more aroused by her if she started wearing different, more alluring clothes. Until now, she has kept Ben a secret from Alice, Bing, and Miles, but with so many changes suddenly afoot, the fourth court order, the imminent dispersal of their little gang, she has decided that this is the day she will tell Alice about the extraordinary thing that has happened to her.
    Alice is kissing her on the cheek now and smiling her Alice smile, and as Ellen watches her friend sit down inthe chair facing the banquette, she wonders if she will ever be good enough to do a drawing that would fully capture that smile, which is the warmest, most luminous smile on earth, a smile that sets Alice apart from every other person she knows, has known, or will ever know until the end of her life.
    Well, kid, Alice says, I guess the grand experiment is over.
    For us, maybe, Ellen says, but not for Bing and Miles.
    Miles is going back to Florida in three weeks.
    I forgot. Bing alone, then. How sad.
    I’m thinking ten more days. If I work hard, I should be able to finish the last chapter by then. Is that okay with you, or would you rather pull out now?
    I don’t ever want to pull out. It’s just that I’m getting scared. If the cops show up, they’ll toss our stuff out onto the street, things could get broken, Bing could go crazy, all sorts of unpleasant possibilities come to mind. Ten days is too long, Alice. I think you should start looking for a new place tomorrow.
    How many rentals do you have?
    Plenty in the Slope, not so many in Sunset Park.
    But Sunset Park is cheaper, which means that Sunset Park is better.
    How much can you afford to pay?
    As little as the market will bear.
    I’ll check the listings after lunch and let you know what we have.
    But maybe you’ve had enough of Sunset Park. If you want to go somewhere else, I have no problem with that. As long as I can pay my half of the rent, anywhere is fine.
    Dear Alice…
    What?
    I hadn’t realized you wanted to share.
    Don’t you?
    In principle, yes, but something has come up, and I’m considering other options.
    Options?
    One option.
    Oh?
    He’s called Benjamin Samuels, and he’s asked me to move in with him.
    You little Devil. How long as this been going on?
    A couple of months.
    A couple of months? What’s gotten into you? A couple of months, and you never even told me.
    I wasn’t sure enough to tell anyone. I thought it might be just a sex thing that would flame out before it was worth mentioning. But it seems to be getting bigger. Big enough for me to want to give it a try, I think.
    Are you in love with him?
    I don’t know. But I’m crazy about him, that much I do know. And the sex is pretty sensational.
    Who is he?
    The one.
    What one?
    The one from the summer of two thousand.
    The man who got you pregnant?
    The boy who got me pregnant.
    So, the story finally comes out…
    He was sixteen, and I was twenty. Now he’s twenty-five, and I’m twenty-nine. Those four years are a lot less important today than they were back then.
    Christ. I thought it might have been the father, but never the son.
    That’s why I couldn’t talk about it. He was too young, and I didn’t want to get him into trouble.
    Did he ever know what happened?
    Not then, no, and not now either. There’s no point in telling him, is there?
    Twenty-five years old. And what does he do with himself?
    Nothing much. He has a dreary little job, and he isn’t terribly bright. But he adores me, Alice, and no one has ever treated me better. We fuck during our lunch break every afternoon in his apartment on Fifth Street. He turns me inside out. I swoon when he touches me. I can’t get enough of his body. I feel I might be going mad, and then I wake up in the morning and realize that I’m happy, happier than I’ve been in a long, long time.
    Good for you, El.
    Yes, good for me.