Fifty Shades Trilogy 02 - Fifty Shades Darker

the table before beating a hasty retreat. Christian has not taken his eyes off me the whole time. I am the first to crack, breaking eye contact, picking up my glass and taking a large gulp. I barely taste it.
    “I’m sorry,” I whisper, suddenly feeling stupid. I left because I thought we were incompatible, but he’s saying I could have stopped him?
    “Sorry for what?” he says alarmed.
    “Not using the safe word.”
    He closes his eyes, as if in relief.
    “We might have avoided all this suffering,” he mutters.
    “You look fine.” More than fine. You look like you.
    “Appearances can be deceptive,” he says quietly. “I’m anything but fine. I feel like the sun has set and not risen for five days, Ana. I’m in perpetual night here.”
    I’m winded by his admission. Oh my, like me.
    “You said you’d never leave, yet the going gets tough and you’re out the door.”
    “When did I say I’d never leave?”
    “In your sleep. It was the most comforting thing I’d heard in so long, Anastasia. It made me relax.”
    My heart constricts and I reach for my wine.
    “You said you loved me,” he whispers. “Is that now in the past tense?” His voice is low, laced with anxiety.
    “No, Christian, it’s not.”
    He gazes at me, and he looks so vulnerable as he exhales. “Good,” he murmurs.
    I’m shocked by his admission. He’s had a change of heart. When I told him I loved him before, he was horrified. The waiter is back. Briskly he places our plates in front of us and scuttles away.
    Holy hell. Food.
    “Eat,” Christian commands.
    Deep down I know I’m hungry, but right now, my stomach is in knots. Sitting across from the only man I have ever loved and debating our uncertain future does not promote a healthy appetite. I look dubiously at my food.
    “So help me God, Anastasia, if you don’t eat, I will take you across my knee here in this restaurant, and it will have nothing to do with my sexual gratification. Eat!”
    Jeez, keep your hair on, Grey. My subconscious stares at me over her half-moon specs. She is wholeheartedly in agreement with Fifty Shades.
    “Okay, I’ll eat. Stow your twitching palm, please.”
    He doesn’t smile but continues to glare at me. Reluctantly I lift my knife and fork and slice into my steak. Oh, it’s mouthwateringly good. I am hungry, really hungry. I chew and he visibly relaxes.
    We eat our supper in silence. The music’s changed. A soft-voiced woman sings in the background, her words echoing my thoughts.
    I glance at Fifty. He’s eating and watching me. Hunger, longing, anxiety combined in one hot look.
    “Do you know who’s singing?” I try for some normal conversation.
    Christian pauses and listens. “No . . . but she’s good, whoever she is.”
    “I like her, too.”
    Finally he smiles his private enigmatic smile. What’s he planning?
    “What?” I ask.
    He shakes his head. “Eat up,” he says mildly.
    I have eaten half the food on my plate. I cannot eat any more. How can I negotiate this?
    “I can’t manage any more. Have I eaten enough for Sir?”
    He stares at me impassively, not answering, then glances at his watch.
    “I am really full,” I add, taking a sip of the delicious wine.
    “We have to go shortly. Taylor’s here, and you have to be up for work in the morning.”
    “So do you.”
    “I function on a lot less sleep than you do, Anastasia. At least you’ve eaten something.”
    “Aren’t we going back via Charlie Tango?”
    “No, I thought I might have a drink. Taylor will collect us. Besides, this way I have you in the car all to myself for a few hours, at least. What can we do but talk?”
    Oh, that’s his plan.
    Christian summons the waiter to ask for the check, then picks up his Blackberry and makes a call.
    “We’re at Le Picotin, South West Third Avenue.” He hangs up.
    Jeez, he’s curt over the phone.
    “You’re very brusque with Taylor, in fact, with most people.”
    “I just get to the point quickly, Anastasia.”
    “You haven’t gotten to the point this evening. Nothing’s changed, Christian.”
    “I have a proposition for you.”
    “This started with a proposition.”
    “A different proposition.”
    The waiter returns, and Christian hands over his credit card without checking the bill. He gazes at me speculatively while the waiter swipes his card. Christian’s phone buzzes once, and he peers at it.
    He has a proposition? What now? A couple of scenarios run through my mind: kidnap, working for