The Forever of Ella and Micha

“Juice, silly. I’m just really excited to be getting a break. Even if it does mean I have to go home.” She tucks strands of her hair behind her ear and tosses a makeup bag into her purse. “Have you seen my perfume?”
    I point at the boxes on her bed. “I think you packed them in one of those. Not sure which one, though, since you didn’t label them.”
    She pulls a face at me. “Not all of us can be neat freaks. Honestly, Ella, sometimes I think you have OCD.”
    I write “Art Supplies” neatly on the box and click the cap back on the sharpie. “I think you might be on to me,” I joke.
    “Dang it.” She smells herself. “I really need it. Allthis heat is making me sweat.” She rips some photos off her dresser mirror and throws them into an open box. “I swear it’s like a hundred and ten outside.”
    “I think it’s actually hotter than that.” I set my school work in the trash, all marked with A’s. Back in High School, I used to be a C student. I hadn’t really planned on going to college, but life changes—people change.
    Lila narrows her blue eyes at my mirror. “You do know that we’re not going to have the same dorm when we come back in the fall, so unless you take all your artwork off, it’s just going to be thrown out by the next person.”
    They’re just a bunch of doodles; sketches of haunting eyes, black roses entwined by a bed of thorns, my name woven in an intricate pattern. None of them matter except one: a sketch of an old friend, playing his guitar. I peel that one off, careful not to tear the corners.
    “I’ll leave them for the next person,” I say and add a smile. “They’ll have a predecorated room.”
    “I’m sure the next person will actually want to look in the mirror.” She folds up a pink shirt. “Although, I don’t know why you want to cover up the mirror. You’re not ugly, El.”
    “It’s not about that.” I stare at the drawing that captures the intensity in Micha’s eyes.
    Lila snatches the drawing from my hands, crinkling the edges a little. “One day you’re going to have to tell me who this gorgeous guy is.”
    “He’s just some guy I used to know.” I steal the drawing back. “But we don’t talk anymore.”
    “What’s his name?” She stacks a box next to the door.
    I place the drawing into the box and seal it with a strip of tape. “Why?”
    She shrugs. “Just wondering.”
    “His name is Micha.” It’s the first time I’ve said his name aloud, since I left home. It hurts, like a rock lodged in my throat. “Micha Scott.”
    She glances over my shoulder as she piles the rest of her clothes into a box. “There’s a lot of passion in that drawing. I just don’t see him as being some guy. Is he like an old boyfriend or something?”
    I drop my duffel bag, packed with my clothes, next to the door. “No, we never dated.”
    She eyes me over with doubt. “But you came close to dating? Right?”
    “No. I told you we were just friends.” But only because I wouldn’t let us be anything more. Micha sawtoo much of me and it scared me too much to let him in all the way.
    She twists her strawberry blonde hair into a ponytail and fans her face. “Micha is an interesting name. I think a name really says a lot about a person.” She taps her manicured finger on her chin, thoughtfully. “I bet he’s hot.”
    “You make that bet on every guy,” I tease, piling my makeup into a bag.
    She grins, but there’s sadness in her eyes. “Yeah, you’re probably right.” She sighs. “Will I at least get to see this mysterious Micha—who you’ve refused to speak about our whole eight months of sharing a dorm together—when I drop you off at your house?”
    “I hope not,” I mutter and her face sinks. “I’m sorry, but Micha and I… we didn’t leave on a good note and I haven’t talked to him since I left for school in August.” Micha doesn’t even know where I am.
    She heaves an overly stuffed pink duffle bag over her shoulder. “That sounds like a perfect story for our twelve hour road trip back home.”
    “Back home…” My eyes widen at the empty room that’s been my home for the last eight months. I’m not ready to go back home and face everyone I bailed on. Especially Micha. He can see through me better than a mirror.
    “Are you okay?” Lila asks with concern.
    My lips bend upward into a stiff smile as I stuff my panicked feeling in a box hidden deep inside my heart. “I’m great. Let’s go.”
    We head out